Leila's Blog

I haven't been on here for a while. I don't know how long. Ever since this semester started, I don't have that much time to actually blog. So many things happened during the past couple months. They troubled me so much. Sometimes, I felt that it would be nice if people never grow up, then there will be no troubles. I don't know why things become complicated when you grow up. Your mind just change due to your surroundings. You have to be strong in order to adapt to this cruel universe. Everything seems to be out of your control; it's never been under your control. My aunt also passed away for almost a month or two. I can't make such an accurate calculation, but it has been a while. Even though we have many cracks in our relationship, it's hard not to feel hurt toward your relative even if they've done you wrong. When I saw her lying there, in the coffin, the idea that sooner or later, everyone is my family will be like her crossed my mind. Tears just bursted out of my eyes, and it were hard to stop. Everything is in the past. For some, I can easily let it go, but sometimes, it's hard for me to forget. No matter how hard I tried, it just won't go away. Forgive and forget, saying it is way easier than actually doing it. I can forgive, but for some things, I just can't forget. All I can do is buried them, buried them all the way down at the bottom of my heart. Anyway, let bygones be bygones.

I've been studying for the past couple days for my finals. I just finished taking my 5th exam for Chemistry yesterday, as well as Math final. I was stuck on some of the problems. Fortunately, I found a way to get away with it. But I think I still messed up on some though. Today was Humanities final. I hope I did OK. I mean, it's like the last couple exams, but since this is the last one, so more pressure on this one. Hope I get an A. Tomorrow is gonna be my last one, Chemistry final. I'm so ready for it since we can have a 3x5 note card. But I got most of the stuff down. They were just basic calculations, some conversion problems, and I just need to review some formulas. I guess that's it for now.